Julie Nutting

Art Journal Vol. 02 Layout 04 On Being Brave | A Study in Contrast

Hi guys, so today’s art journaling layout is going to be a bit serious. This post may contain mention of sexual and intimate partner violence, although from the perspective of using art journaling to heal. Typically when I create my art journaling layouts, I try to come from a place of positivity and I try to use these layouts and the process to build myself up. Today’s is a bit different because I started with a black canvas and am studying some contrasts here. Take a look at my process video, and then I will chat more:

I have mentioned in the past that I am a survivor of intimate partner violence (domestic violence) in my previous marriage. Trauma is a very real part of my past and for several years I have been working through some of my pain related to that. I am a true believer that art has a tremendous ability to help us express some of the very complicated emotions that come with being a survivor.

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Part of my urge to create art journals is to be able to tap into some of the art of color and texture and expression. Today’s layout, I will pre-qualify, is not meant to be pretty. I purposely began with a black canvas and then worked layers on top of that.

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Sometimes, although not always, survivors find that their abuse they survived within their marriage is not the only abuse they have survived. Many women go on to learn about hidden abuse that lay dormant, hidden, in their past. When trauma occurs in childhood, frequently it becomes normalized, and unhealthy patterns of thought and behavior develop around them. Sometimes those unhealthy, but sub-conscious ways of seeing the world, set us up to be victims later on. 

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This past week and month I have had to face the reality that indeed, my abuse was not only in my marriage but also in my childhood. That is all I am able to speak for now, but this art journal layout is an expression of the world around me. It is cloudy: some of it black and dark, some of it colorful and bright.

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I used the tear drop stencil (from Faber Castell) to represent the tears that have been part of my whole life. Years ago a psychiatrist, based on the information I was able to give him at the time, diagnosed me with dysthymia, which is chronic depression. He asked me if I could remember a time in my life when I was ever happy, and truth is I couldn’t. Ever. Sure, there were many happy moments, and I had great parents who loved me very much, but I had always struggled with a feeling of something being wrong.

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There were always people who convinced me to see the positive in life, although they now would never imagine what was happening to me in the dark. And I was able to make a good life, have beautiful children, and now have a stable marriage with a good environment.

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When I look back over this layout, I find some very interesting things that happened on this page. First, notice how the girl is sparkly with her beautiful wings and her sparkly top, pretty flowered skirt, and happy brown boots. She is untouched by the darkness around her.

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I added some more black as I was finishing the layout, particularly around her. She is elevated off the page, as if the darkness could not touch her. I stamped the word Brave around the page because it represents all the people who told me to be brave in my sadness, even though they had no idea what they were telling me to be brave about.

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To me, as I look back over this layout, it seems as if this girl is trying to rise out of these ashes, working towards moving forward with her wings and her boots. People told me to be brave, but they never realized I already was. I already sparkled and shone, even though my wings were invisible. In this layout, they are most definitely visible. They are the brightest element on the page, and rightly so. 

Art Journal On Being Brave

I know this is not the prettiest art journal layout in the world; it is not intended to be. Sometimes what we are processing is dark and difficult, and there are no pretty colors for those times. I hope you will try something like this for yourself and see where the medium takes you. Thank you for being here today, and for watching and reading. See you tomorrow.

~Theresa

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Art Journal No. 04 | Be the Light

Hi friends, I am sharing with you another art journal layout today and I will start out by saying this one is a mess! And that is the whole point of art journaling – to create a big mess and allow the process to happen and embrace the outcome. Embrace the outcome because there is joy simply in creating and simply in working with the different mediums and papers and colors. Have a peek at my process:

Here is the finished layout:

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I started with papers from Papyrus and a paper bag from a local shop, and then just layered from there.

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I was also inspired by a stamp set I have had in my collection for a while, which is designed by Alisa Burke. Her website and shop can be found here: Alisa Burke (enabler warning, she is an amazing artist! Here is a link to the stamp set I used, which is available for purchase in her shop here: Doodle Flowers.

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I adore the silhouette I used, which is one of Julia Nutting’s dolls created for Prima. Rather than use the stamped image, I used the patterned side of the paper, and then used her dress as the home for my stamped sentiment (also Prima stamps).

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One thing I love about art journaling is that it gives me opportunity to work with tools and mediums and colors and textures, and then look back over the layout to 1) love my work and pat myself on the back for trying different things; and 2) ask myself if there is anything I would do differently in the future. There are several things I might do differently, and I do hope to revisit this layout at a later date to try these same elements in another way. That is how we learn and that is how we stretch our own creativity! I hope you will be inspired today to use your own products to create something fun and happy. See you back tomorrow with Project Life!

~Theresa